1st day of March 2021

 Happy New Year. 

This is my first post in wait for it... 3 years. A lot has happened , I opened my own law firm and there was Covid-19. I still cannot believe that I lived through an epidemic of this magnitude and still made it through to update my blog. 

I am excited about this new chapter in my life. I missed writing my feelings down. A person I met recently suggested that I purchase a diary and start penning down my thoughts and feelings. I told him I am terrified to, because of my Mom and Aunt confronting me about things they had read in my diary during high school. I am lowkey still in my feelings and my walls are all the way up. So no diary for me. 

Life is good, its a constant revolving door of awakenings. My life started becoming my own the day I decided to take control of my life back. Damn I am so excited, I remember how much Blogging helped me to graduate from the University of Limpopo and lose almost 45 kg's of unwanted weight. Hopefully I will crack the code again and complete all the things I left hanging. 

I am in my 30's who would have known, time flies. One moment I was excited about my new BLOG going up, now I get excited with getting a FIDELITY FUND CERTIFICATE. I thank God I am not where I used to be, that is what I hold on to everyday and helps me to enjoy the moment and get over where I think I want to be. 

Today is the 1st of March 2021, South Africa is back to Level 1 and although things changed, they still stayed the same. Today I don't want to be too heavy, lets keep it as light as my new life and diet. I hope all my readers are good and doing everything they need to be doing. I once had a dream of having my own website and publishing my own content, I think it might become a reality with every line I type. 

This year promises to be a very interesting one as far as my Blog and personal growth is concerned. One of my closest friends Salome, has been summoning my sleeping spirit and I am glad to say that she is wide awake. We are still on that woman empowerment tip and emancipating the minds of the mentally enslaved. I am working on some merch for my Blog and brand which I will keep you updated on as you follow me into this journey of self discovery and self awareness. 

Thank you for taking your time out to read what I have to say. I hope you have yourself a fruitful and peaceful week. 

Regards

Ms X Ngwenya 

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Hi Langa my bestie. NB teaching her how to type the orange is all you baby doll.
One day I will show you where you started .

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SWIM GOOD

"That's a pretty big trunk on my Lincoln town car, ain't it?
Big enough to take these broken hearts and put 'em in it
Now I'm driving 'round on the boulevard, trunk bleeding
And every time the cops pull me over, they never see them
And I've got this black suit on
Roaming around like I'm ready for a funeral
Five more miles 'til the road runs out

I'm about to drive in the ocean
I'ma try to swim from something bigger than me
Kick off my shoes and swim good, and swim good
Take off this suit and swim good, and swim good, good.."

-FRAN OCEAN 

child-like-ness

my mom is bribing my daughter with the prospects of her going to school tomorrow.

the trap of growing up should be postponed. personally I do not feel comfortable with encouraging my children to grow up too soon, the world is a harsh place.

look at us! all of us! we wanted to grow up so badly. my friend called in a panic the other day, he cannot breathe he is trapped in his own growing up. he told me of the guy who apparently jumped out of the Discovery building in Johannesburg all because of growing up.

let the children enjoy their youth and may they stay forever young, like Jesus who likened the people who will see the kingdom of heaven to be like children. everyone knows I am a child with children and will personally stay that way. and ain't got no time with anybody telling me any different.

Lebo Sekgobela - Moya (Live) [Restored 2016]

a beautiful rendition to the giver of all things and the magnificent father we have in heaven and all around us.

Listening to this song literally bought tears to my eyes, it moves my spirit. it bears testament to the Holy Spirit of our heavenly father who keeps on doing great things.

Living here on earth be weary of being moved by anything else but God. Do not look to be moved by people, events, places or things all those are fleeting like sand in your hand, the warmth and glory of Jehovah is forever.

Tis a reminder oh mortal, that seek the Lord and his righteousness all the days of your life. Ask God to order your steps and even when he has ordered those steps ask him to give you the words to say and the appropriate action.

Oh the danger of relying on yourself is real and will capsize you. Hold on to this and call on it even in your sleep.

ahead

Ntobeko it's fixed girl just for you okaaay. Other day we were talking with Nolwazi and the message was type what is in your heart. Do not think about it too much girl.

She asked about paragraphs and punctuation, the answer was don't think about it too much, too much, too much ...tooo much it will all make sense. that awkward moment when not everyone has listened to Frank Ocean.   

Oh Frank! he was a phase when we did not think too far ahead... thinking about forever like he did. forever? that is unchartered territory, not a single letter from there. poetry, writing words live forever. Sometime somewhere this will be studied, Ntobeko and Nolwazi make it count.