G.

I call him Warren G because Nobody does it better. Like Nate Dogg says Original there will never be. He's an OG , that's what he is from the moment he wakes up to the time he goes to sleep. I had moments with him that were unlike anything I could compare to. This is to you the square root of a kilo a G.

Loving.

Affected..

They say loyalty is the first rule of affection.

I am a Queen.

He just told me to get a vibrator. When I said no to plastic he proceeded to ask me why I don't want to get chowed? I told him because I am a Queen. He said he doesn't understand and that I should explain. I told him its simple, you either are royal or you are not. If you are you will understand my position. I will not explain it to anyone it's simple really you either get it or you don't. Speaking of which not a lot are going to get it, literally.

Tour Guide

He told me he likes the way I write. If only he knew this was the way I think. I don't know whether he is awre of the fact that he has been given a free pass into my mind. It's a free tour that I am offering not only to him but to you to so enjoy. This is 4D and it is as real as it gets.

Jacky O.

No woman deserves to be treated like a Marilyn Monroe. Every woman must demand to be a Jackie O. Marilyn's end was a very sad one, cold and all alone, no woman deserves that. J.F.K vehemently denied her in public time and time again, she was nothing more but his dirty little secret. Stop selling yourself short and being someones disgusting secret that is kept in the dark, you deserve to be displayed and paraded but only if you know you should. If you know your value and the person you are with knows it too,you will not be kept in a dark and cold vault but you will be showed off, so know that now.As far as I am concerned no one person is that important that you will have to compete for his or affection.

PEACE OF MIND

I had a disagreement with my father, that meant that he took his modem. Aint that some ish though lol. Anyway had a great day with a very good friend of mine yesterday, one of my very few but very dear people. It's an honor for a person to regarded as my person and she has been since high school.

There are some people in life that  are commodities and are of value. I myself am one so I can't help but attract others. A guy friend of mine asked me something profound last night.He asked me why them? Why choose to chill and spend most of my time with them over people with cars, careers and money? My answer was, why not you? I believe that great minds attract each other. Attraction like my friend told me at the Salon yesterday, is not one sided. I have learned more from my friends this year than I have my entire life.

I have come to a point in my life where I can differentiate between friends and groupies. Because you see my whole life I have been surrounded by fans and groupies but never friends. People who love you for what you have, what you say and how you say it but never you because they do not know it. I crammed so much this year alone than I ever did in my formative years. It's sad when you look back at your life and the people you were surrounded by and come to the grim realisation that you never learned anything from them.

My motto from this year until my demise will always be Bro's before Ho's. There is just something about my Bro's and their candid and very insightful conversations that opens my mind and reminds me of my purpose. Ho's on the other hand are limited to gossip and men, nothing else. So yes Bro's before Ho's. This year has been the year that I found me and most importantly people who get me. I have been looking for so long and I finally found it. Three words come to my mind words I feel within me and understand that I dont need to utter because they are my truth but since I mentioned them I might as well share them with you..PEACE OF MIND.

Yours in kind
Ms_Curvy

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Falling.

And I told myself..

Executive Decisions.

Falling in love is a decision. This is something I heard from someone and I did not believe because I used to think it automatically happens all by itself,love that is. But people do make decisions to fall in love with someone. I'm saying this because a lot of guys are angry with me because they have decided to fall in love with me.

They have made that decision without consulting me or even worse ignoring me when I tell them I am not looking for love. I am not singing that R.Kelly song looking for love anymore, I have found love, I found it in myself. What people fail to understand about that I will never know. It's simple, it's not because you don't drive or have a fancy degree or job, it's about the fact that I am not looking for anything I have found it and for now it's enough.

I made a decision myself and it seems to be clashing with a lot of people's who invite in my life under the platonic umbrella. You decide to fall in love it's true. You decide to get intoxicated by the way I speak or form words, you decide to be mesmerised by my hair and all it's glory, you make a decision to want me around, you decided that yiu had what it takes to be with me, sadly without me knowing what you have concluded by yourself. I was not present during that dialogue with yourself when you weighed all the pro's and con's of being with me, so why persecute me?

Whenever I come to someone, I always come real and direct. I let my actions speak for themselves and they are always clear, I am a lot of things but ambiguous is not one of them. I refuse to feel bad for decisions people have made regarding me, without having consulted me.It's time people start living with their decisions and leave me out the same way they did when they made them.

It sounds a bit harsh I am sure, but at the end of the day it is what it is and that is truth. I have been guilty of this in the past as well as I am sure a lot of people have been. Where we decide to love someone and miraculously expect them to feel the same and when they don't we get insulted. You go back to find that where that has happened the person told you from the beginning that they were not looking for more than what they are offering you at that moment. I know what that is, that is being selfish. We let the  ego take over and it makes us believe it's there and we cockily ask ourselves why wouldn't it?

As a matter of fact..

Mirror mirror on the wall.

99 problems but a bitch aint one.

Do not call her a bitch because she rejected you and you are sour or because you heard someone else calling her one. Call her a bitch because you have been there with her and you know as a matter of fact that shes a bitch.

100% Authentic

I am an embodiement of three things that set me apart from the rest.

1. The truth
2. A mind of my own accompanied by a strong voice that cannot be ignored.
3. Real hair

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Accountability.

If people had the slightest idea on how difficult being a parent is, they would approach starting families with caution. I am a mother to a 4 year old and let me tell you this is by far the hardest thing I have had to do. Unlike everything I have owned in my life, which I have lost,broke and given to someone else, my son is not one of them.

Once you grapple your head around the fact that once he or she is born they are yours for the rest of your life and you are theirs for the rest of their lives, then maybe you are ready to procreate. Giving life is the biggest task which needs constant revision which might lead to second guessing yourself. I never understood until I got my head around the fact that he is mine, literally and figuratively. In a sense that I carry him everywhere from the moment I wake up in the morning until the minute I go to bed at night.

You start to take care of them when they are still being formed and as you carry them around all those nine months. The day they decide it's time to come out, you fear for them more then you fear for yourself. Suddenly life happens,and that is how it will be for the rest of your life. Pain becomes all that more real, not only for yourself but for them as well. So believe when I say,spiritual,mental and physical maturity are key when embarking on this journey.

I would never trade my son for anything in the world. Ever since he has been in my life I feel like he has been there forever I can never imagine a world without him. When they talk about a love that lasts forever this is what they are talking about. He made me ready, ready to face life and anything that might be thrown my way because I am not only accountable for myself anymore. He reminds me of my purpose with every candle on his birthday cake. Because of him I understand how God feels, how he dreams bigger dreams for us and wants more for us.

I have found my reason to live and succeed at whatever I do because now I understand it stopped being about me 4 years ago. Love has another meaning now,its unconditional, my heart stops beating if I call his name and he doesn't answer. My mouth goes dry when I don't see him for more than 20 minutes, my heart melts ever morning when he opens his eyes. Moral of the story? You have not truly experienced love until you are replicated.

No lie

Heartbeat

Walking away.

Believe me when I say, after some time you choose to think about someone. It eventually becomes a choice, but you must be willing to get there first.

Control.

Here is a thought..You can't limit thoughts about someone you still love,all you can do is control them. Those thoughts have no limits, because in all honesty if you had to stay awake and not fall asleep they would be all you think about. Control starts here, by contoling and introducing new thoughts you are freeing yourself from being a prisoner and being held captive by your own thoughts.

Is love alive.

The only time I don't feel like a ghost is when you look at me, cause you look at me, you see me, this is me..see me.

Eye of the beholder..

Keep it moving.

Hell NOOOOOOOOOO!

When a man says NO it's the end of the discussion, but when a woman says NO it's the beginning of a negotiation. Aint that just just bullshit? One of my biggest peeves is when someone tries to convince me otherwise when my initial answer is NO.

If NO will initiate a negotiation, I say HELL NO to make things clear and put an end to any discussion. No means No, guys think that just because they get away with persuading chicks to change their minds and say YES, they automatically think those lame moves will move with a woman. That is what I am, a woman and I know where I put my foot and that is down especially when my mind is made the fuck up.

This reminds me of some chick I tried to turn into a woman. She acted like her neck did not have that muscle helps the neck go from left to right, she said yes even when she had initially said no and knew she was supposed to say no. I remember when someone we both knew invited her over and she said she could not go. When I asked her why? She said she was scared the guy would want sex and she would not know what to do. I looked her straight in the eye, hell I might have shook a bitch and I asked her what does she mean she would not know what to say? I told her you say HELL NO! If HELL NO  does not work  try FUUUUCK NO and if that does not work use one word that always works for me, NEVER!

No one has the right to change your damn mind but you. Once you have made a decision stick to it and exercise your right to say NO. Everyone knows that once I say NO I mean it and whoever is idiotic enough to try and change my mind will go back to where they came from in reverse and with their tail in between their trembling legs. I don't know whether it's just me but I do not like having what I say being disregarded even if it is just one word like NO. The fact of the matter is it comes out of my mouth and the only reason I would like to believe I formed the sound and uttered it is because I mean it?

Me, Myself and I.

I am I in the company of others. I am ME in the company of myself.

Me, Myself and I.

I am I in the company of others. I am ME in the company of myself.

Not Guilty

I guess its true that just because you value something does not necessarily mean everyone you meet will. We always quick to say we are heart broken, when in actual fact we are just disappointed. Disappointed because people always turn out to be everything they said they are not.

A friend of mine was going through something. We reminded him that just because he gave himself as he is does not mean he made a mistake by giving it to someone who did not. At the end of the day,it was good when it was good. Just because something does not turn out to be what it seemed to be does not mean it wasn't there. The key is to always stay true to yourself, when you are true to yourself you give yourself, just because somebody else chooses not to or does not know how to, should never take anything away from you.

Respect yourself
Ms_Curvy

Choices.

Don't make a decision on choices that are not available to you.

Fill in your initials.

My initials are X. Professor wrote a song about me, u X onga solveki, is'gebengu esinga khuzeki. If you ever asked me to tell you about myself that's what I would say. This is to the guy who once told me I am not water or air, the one who told me he has lived without me before and will continue to live without me. I wonder how his living in fool's fantasy is treating him. I always say people can try to take anything away from me, but not who I am and that is unforgettable.

Shine.

Here is a thought. Where are diamonds found? Diamonds are found in Africa that's where. We are diamonds we need to start treating ourselves as such. The world is in demand of them, they kill for us, wear us around their necks and let us drip from their ears. They aspire to own us. You are a diamond, know your worth and don't allow anyone to treat you like glass,so shine.

Ha!

T.K.O

Coming Soon..

Royal Blood.

I was once one of those people who was always occupied with finding out how many people read my blog. Numbers were growing but no one was saying anything. Then I remembered we are black people and as black people we were redesigned to hate one another. I say redesigned because we are no longer Africans but blacks. They called us blacks and that is exactly what we have become.

Being black means your mind is imprisoned because of your skin colour and the name you answer to. We have adopted a fear of conquering. I say adopted because it is not ours, it was dictated to us and we just took it and ran. Our fore fathers were warriors, we are descendants of Kings and Queens who conquered and I think they left behind that same spirit to their descendants. We have our own continent, a place that is ours we are not occupants here, we are owners.

The point I am trying to get across is we have forgotten who we are. We hate on each other on our successes and the ones with successes look down on the ones without. I once told a good friend of mine that it"s not that people do not take notice of what we do or what we are offering, they do but they are offended. They are offended in a sense that as an African person success has become some what an obtainable ideal. If you have doubts of your own capabilities and dreams you will in turn feel the same about another's. It's not that people do not recognised your hustle, they do, they are just offended at the fact that you are doing it. They think how dare you think you can do that? Not because they are not capable of doing the same but because they were taught to choke and believe it just wasn't for them.

I repeat I am a descendant of Kings and Queens. We are the children of the working class, we are children of people who labour in their own land. I, together with a lot of young royals have decided to lead by example. We made a decision to show our fellow people that IT IS YOURS if you really want it. Acknowledge someone if they are doing something noticeable, scoffing and looking the other way makes you a black person amongst Africans. We are walking away from the inhibiting teachings of the system we have found ourselves in.

Kind Regards
Ms_Curvy

Call me Jimi Hendrix

I am Jimmy Hendrix b*tch I need my inspiration, that's all I'm saying. Being back home means I have been uninspired for a while. It's not writers block it's lack of inspiration. Do you know how frustrating it is to open a blank page and you cannot piece a single thought together? Well I have for the past week.

First my Blackberry dies, then my laptop does not want to charge. To say I am frustrated is a grave underestimate. Hopefull after today I will get over the whole comfort of being at home and find my voice again. I have been silent for too long. My audience is need of their daily dose of truth. Ms_Curvy is still committed to serving it chilled.

Home Sweet Home.

The dream has been revitalised. I'm happy to report that I am back from my long and well deserved break. I was in my own little place for a while, I was at home.  I was so relaxed to a point that I had a lot of thoughts but I was unable to make them one. I don't know how many times I wrote something but I could not complete it.

Like I have mentioned several times before, I take what I do and what I publish very seriously. It is a reflection of me and I am complete and I am the truth. I am touched by how many people look forward to what I have to say and all the ones who quote me when our paths cross.Special mention to those who dream with me and for me, the ones who God sends to my life to remind me of why I am here. I was touched by two guys in particular, this goes out to Desmond and Leeroy. They both gave me gifts which I treasure and will always keep close to my heart. Desmond gave me the gift of dreaming and he made me accept that this is mine. Leeroy gave me back a gift I never knew I gave to him. He re gifted the most precious thing that I will keep between him and myself.

With that said I hope I live up to my potential and what God has gifted me and that is a sound mind and power beyond measure. I see God working in me and through me every day, at first I was scared of how much power I have but now I embrace it and understand that with great power comes a great responsibility. I am not only responsible to myself but to every single one of you.

It feels good to be back.

Kind Regards
Ms_Curvy