lost

Can we ever go back to the way things are supposed to be? Where we follow what we feel and don’t constantly have to analyse it and fight it. Are we ever going to be able to get back to the basics that made us?  I’m talking about affection, sharing caring and just loving each other.

When are we going to stop denying ourselves what we really want? I am tired of getting into situations where I have to act like I understand what is going on, when I actually don't and probably never will. I am tired of buckling to the pressures of the world. I am not a child of the world, I will no longer be dictated to. This is not my life I denounce it.

I want to find that place where it’s ok to walk around starry eyed with a goofy smile on my face. I would like to close my eyes and wake up in a place where there are no motives or questions, a place where it is what it is. A place where I do not have to constantly fight against what I know I have to do.  A place where we can take care of each other, where I feed you and you protect me.

Times have erased so much, I’m alarmed. As much as I always male bash truth is I have also lost my way as a woman. It does not help that there are no real men left who will guide me back to my rightful path. Men of these days say they want respect but do they even take the time to teach you? I live with anarchy within myself. I am conflicted between what is inherent and what I see. I wonder if I will ever find peace

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